Post by cala on May 3, 2008 20:22:08 GMT -5
356. Falling
Everything about Kami intrigues you.
The way she never has a bad hair day because her hair just Doesn’t Do That. The way she moves, as though she’s calculating every step, like every move has an underlying motive and none are Just Because. The way her eyes shift, as though there’s so much going on behind them, and none of it you can see. The way she looks at you, how you feel she can See Right Through, though you know it’s impossible. They way you want to bear your soul, the way you want her to See Right Through, but then again you don’t because that would mean things you don’t even want to contemplate.
The way that you can coax a small smile out of her every once and again, the way her lips curve. The way that she makes you happy because you’ve made her happy, or amused, for one short millisecond and you just can’t wait to do it again. The way that she acts sometimes, how there’s no one else in the world when you two are conversing.
The way that everything about her intrigues you.
And you realize that you’ve come full circle on something, something that you can’t recall ever doing before. And there’s something in the pit of your stomach that won’t settle when she’s around, when she looks at you. You know, even though you aren’t sure you want to, that something’s happening. Something that you aren’t sure you want to happen.
It’s all so confusing.
But the thing that intrigues you most about Kami is the way that she makes you lie awake at night, thinking over again that you can’t be falling, no you can’t, because people Don’t Do That. Well, really, they do. And you’re already put away behind walls because you’re a freak…
Surely this can’t be any less freakish. And people like that don’t get locked up for being Like That.
But, no, you can’t be falling.
Everything about Kami intrigues you.
The way she never has a bad hair day because her hair just Doesn’t Do That. The way she moves, as though she’s calculating every step, like every move has an underlying motive and none are Just Because. The way her eyes shift, as though there’s so much going on behind them, and none of it you can see. The way she looks at you, how you feel she can See Right Through, though you know it’s impossible. They way you want to bear your soul, the way you want her to See Right Through, but then again you don’t because that would mean things you don’t even want to contemplate.
The way that you can coax a small smile out of her every once and again, the way her lips curve. The way that she makes you happy because you’ve made her happy, or amused, for one short millisecond and you just can’t wait to do it again. The way that she acts sometimes, how there’s no one else in the world when you two are conversing.
The way that everything about her intrigues you.
And you realize that you’ve come full circle on something, something that you can’t recall ever doing before. And there’s something in the pit of your stomach that won’t settle when she’s around, when she looks at you. You know, even though you aren’t sure you want to, that something’s happening. Something that you aren’t sure you want to happen.
It’s all so confusing.
But the thing that intrigues you most about Kami is the way that she makes you lie awake at night, thinking over again that you can’t be falling, no you can’t, because people Don’t Do That. Well, really, they do. And you’re already put away behind walls because you’re a freak…
Surely this can’t be any less freakish. And people like that don’t get locked up for being Like That.
But, no, you can’t be falling.